i got to know today...

Ajj jaan lyi ki mere likhe har harf di ki keemat hai,

Ki maayne rakhda hai meri kalam cho nikalya har akhhar tere layi,

Socheya nahi c m enna khaas ban jaauga,

Ki mere likhe khat nu padh k, ro jaayega koi :(

Dekhi hun teri muskaan layi,

Arjun kis had tak yaari nu le k jaanda hai,

Dost duniyaa ne bathere dekhe hone,

Par mere warga kehda duniyaa te waar waar aunda hai ;)

J tu menu khaas manyya hai zindagi vich,

Ta m v khud nu anmol smajhya hai,

Eh ta waqt waqt di gall hai,

Kade khushi aa jandi h use rishte ch te kadi dukh

Par eh sabh jhel k v jo kathe hon di himmet rakhe,

Ehje rishte hunde ne poori duniya ch sirf kuch,

Hun badal dena andaaz appna,

Shabda di bantar hun m palat deni,

Jihnu padh k tu dukhi hundi c,

Aapa hun uhji koi kavita hi ni banauni :P

Esda matlab eh naa samji,

M rondu kavitaavaa likhniyaa chadd duga,

Uh v jaari rakhuga sada mai,

Par uhna vicho pyaar di khushboo kadh dugaa..

paagalpan

Saari duniya bhaji firdi pyaar mohabbat de piche,

Par smaj na sakya koi k dostti ch ta pyaar to wadhere khich hai,

Pyaar dinda h khushi, par mangda h bahut kujh rishte to,

Dost kehnda ha menu ki lod hai, tu ta bhaawe jaan mang lai mere to,,

Binaa koi shart bina kise mang to dost har wele naal khada hunda hai,

Pyaar bhaawe bhul jaawe, par dost  dil de sab to kole hunda hai,,

Har kise naal aapa dosti v ni kar paande,

Kujh khaas lok hi zindagi vich dost ban k hai aande,,

Kismat waleya nu hi milda hai ek sacche dost da pyaar,

Zindagi ch aashiq ta ho sakde ne kayi hazaaar

Par jo aakhri dum tak bina soche tera saath nibhawe ehja dost labhna h aukha,

Arjun dosti kade na chaddi, har kise nu nu milda dost banaaun da mauka.

Haq naal dost hi hath fad k tenu khushi den di himmat rakhda hai,

Paagalpan lagge bhawe duniya nu, par es dil mere dost teri dosti te pyaar wasda hai..

Uh pyaar jo aashiq to v wadhke suchha hai, jo tenu mauka ni dega sharmindgi da

Aaja aapa utho hi shuruat kariye, piche chutt gya c jehda lamha is zindagi daa J

return of challa

Ajj lad k m tere naal dekhna hai,

Tere haase nu fad k ajj dekhna hai,

Ro laye hun bahut aapa dowo,

Hun dukha wall mud k ni dekhna hia,

Aaja kariye shuruaat apni puraani yaari di,

Jisne hosh bhula ditti c duniyaa saari di,

Ki enna vishwaas mere te kar sakdi h?

Ki ek waar fer meri dosti d ahath fad sakdi h? 

Waada nahi h daawa mere tenu pehla wang hasaawaga

Keha c pehla v ajj fe rkehnda marde dam tak teri dosti nibhawaga

Bahut senti poema likh dittiya mai, Ajj hassan hasaun niu jee karda hai

Rondu baneya eh aboharian challa hun fer haase diyaa galla karda hai

Mud k ni dekhanaa ateet wal te na hi fikar karni aaun wale wele di.,

Arjun ki pata kad jind muk jaawe kisnu khabar h es duniya de mele di??

Chall le challiye apne khayala nu us mukaam te,jithe jhagde di koi thaan na howe,

Hasawaan m tenu te tu menu hasaawe, dur dur tak v koi gham naa howe J

maafinaama

Likh k hazaara waar mita ditte ajj main apne akhhar,

Kyuki jaan gya mere kahe da tere te ki asar hunda hai,

Pareshan huni h tu uthe kalli baith ke,

Te edhar tnahaayi vich mera dil v ronda hai,, :’(

Mita sakda kaash m tenu ditte har uh dukh de lamhe,

Samet leyanda jahaan bhar diya khushiyaa

Maafi bakhs dewi mere dost menu,

Teri maafi di uddek ch bethiya ne meriya akhiyaa :(

Ajj bhull k saara jahaan teri dosti apnaaun nu jee karda

Ki mera saccha dost menu mil sakda hai?

Main wapis aaun di koshish kar reha ha,

Ki meri gltiya bhulaa k mera dost agge wadh sakda hai?

Khada ha tere naal sada, ban k teri yaari da sayaa,

Bhul nahi sakda har uh lamha jo m tere naal h bitaaya

Main ajj tak chedkhaaniya te mazaak karda reha ha,

Par tere dur jaan de darr ne h menu ehja banaaya 

9 sept.

for some it was just another day, but for me it was the day!!

9th September, it came and went away!!

i still have the memories completely fresh in my mind,

the long walk that we had and the shadows crawling behind :(

it was then and there when i lost it all,

i became dead, life less like a concrete wall 

i still can not imagine how i was able to cope up

the only thing  i know is, that i grew up!

to face the reality n know where i stand,

on a lonely road surrounded by darkness where there's no land!!! 

but i'll go through and face it all just to see you happy and smile,

so that all my efforts become worth while :)

but sep 9 will always stay in my heart as a day when it all went off,

coz that was the day, i wanted you to stop :'(

off beat

i can not say anything now,
i don't have a mind that works,
but my brains goes through a lot everyday
everyday it almost bursts :'(
you told me our relation wont be affected,
be it anything,,,
but in just a few moments of separateness,
you forgot everything :"(
i can not cry and i wont because i promised,
but deep inside my heart,
i want myself to get vanished

eyes wide open....

What’s mine will always be mine, I don have to ask for it,

I realized I was going on the wrong path I was unaware a bit

Going through this journey, loosing whatever I possessed,

You came to my life, and from that day I was blessed,

with you as a support that always was there besides me,

Someone whom I could look up to and see standing behind me

I got my lost smile back on my face with your entry in my life,

I broke those shackles of sadness and gave away all my strife

I can still remember every single moment of togetherness that we both spent,

And do you remember how time flew? How quickly those days went,

Today I don know where you are, have lost in touch with you,

I can barely walk with my eyes wide open, only I know how I am moving through,

To move on in life is one thing, but it does not mean forgetting your past,

How can go away from that person whom you wanted to be your first and last?

But your happiness still excites me, a thought that comes to mind,

That one day I will get back to you, wherever you are I will find

And that day will bring the lost soul that left my body the day you moved away,

Since then I have been wondering where to hide my pain? Forever is it going to stay?

SPAM

The words that come from your mouth mean a lot to me,

They can be the reason of my sadness or a reason for glee

You might forget sooner, whatever you say,

But believe me angel, in my mind everything stays

I am unable to get rid of it and unable to figure it out,

What should I say to you, when my own mind has so much to doubt,

I am not angry at all; I am not worried even a bit,

I want you to go ahead and have fun, but remember me that’s it!

I try to forget, I try to run and I try to go away,

But I become helpless, that is all I can say :(

A friend, an enemy or a special one for you, I don’t know who I am,

But I want a place in your heart’s inbox; never want to go in SPAM ;)

When I look at the happier side of it, I figure out a number of things,

That our relation is here to stay, no matter how much trouble it brings

Don’t ever break me never, forget me not I wont be able to bear

Never go away from me, don’t keep me in disguise my dear

My feelings have found in you, a body I was always looking for,

Even after I go from this world, my soul will come to be with you that is for sure

i found my lost friend!!

I got my angel that I lost in my life’s journey sometime ago,

I was going on the wrong track, our relation was moving to and fro.

In you I always searched for love of my life, the one I momentarily got,

But I was too big a fool to loose you, with my mind always on the wrong spot :(

But last night I realized how important I was to you, and what all our friendship meant,

What was the meaning of all those lovely moments that together did we spent :)

Amidst all the pain and fights, you never gave up on me,

In you I found my love, the best friend that I never thought I could be….

And after the entire struggle we both have gone in the past year or so,

Your words of anger still echo in my ears, whenever you tell me to go 

The faith you showed in me last night and over past such a long time,

It automatically made me write and made my words to rhyme ;)

You are the best thing that ever happened to me and never shall happen again,

I will be your best friend no matter what, be it sunshine, darkness or even rain!!!

i care for you!!

Its been a while since I told you I love you, I guess its too late now.

I still cry silently in the dark nights trying to forget you somehow!!

But all everything becomes worthless and all those efforts go in vain,

When I think of the times we spent together, those shining skies, and thundering rains

They bring along with them the memories I try to forget,

I just cannot help it my eyes become automatically wet!! :’(

I am a lover to the core and always shall be, believe me

I will stay with you forever even after my soul leaves me

And bring to your face always, a J that you deserve

From the core of my heart, this relation of friendship I will serve….

I care for you, I long for your arms,

These nights of loneliness are doing me a lot of harm,

And all I can do is nothing nut wait for you to come,

And take me to a new world where no one else would come

Give me back the one I loved, the one that made me what I am today,

I know it’s not possible now, but I wanted, in my life, forever you to stay