m bad for you........

kuj galtiya m zaroor kitiya par kuj da m iwe hi gunehgaar ban gya..

ajj kehan wali koi gall ni c par ek hor din apne jahgde da yaadgaar ban gya..

ki kara j mwri sahi kiti gall v kite na kite galt sabit ho jaandi h?

ki h meri galti h k tere bina meri eh haalat ho jaandi h?

tetho dur jaan di badi himmat kiti par jaa nu hunda mere to,,,

ki esse layi rab ne tenu ethe behj ditaa, inj dukhi hon lyi mere to?

main haa kamla athru palle bann k bas firda rehanda ha pal do pal...

mere kol hun koi aas nahi ki hona h mera jad aayega kal..

ehsaas ho gya m kithe khad da ha es duniyaa di bheed vih ki haa mai...

tenu paan da supna kiwe sajaa laya jad ki tere ta ni layak vi mai,,,

bhull ho gyi tenu dukh ditte anginat te haje v anjaane ch rulaa dinna ha...

par yaara ho sake ta menu maaf kardi,, aakhri alvidaa es gall te m kehna haa...

na zidd karni na haq mangna mai,,te naa hi kade tenu pyaar karna,,,

pagal c m jo es pyaar magar bhull gya c sab jeena marna.,,

hun ehsass hunda h k me ta teri dosti de haq v khondaa ja reha ha..

jinna tere lyi khaas ban na chahnda c unna hi door hunda jaa reha haa...

kuj galla main vishwas v ni kar paa reha jo akhri dina vich ehnaa kanna ne suniya ne,,

sab kehnde m maada ha,,,bure da thappa laga ta is duniyaa de,,

sab kehnde arjun tu badal gya,,par main haalata hatho majboor hoya..

hassda c kade ji chehra sada kuj raata layi uh bahut roya....

maada ha k changa jo v haa,,,par ban ke reh gya m v uhi jo kade naa chahya c..

har us cheez to hun darr lagda h jisnu kade m samjhyaa mera apnaa saaya c,,,

The answers....

When i was not in love i used to wonder... 

why people wish to fall in love if there is so much pain.. 

why love someone even after knowing that one day they will also change!! 

I used to feel sorry for them who were unable to forget there past...

so many options were available but still they used to cry for the one they have lost !! 

Now i have got answers to my question... 

this feeling is strange it rules our heart... 

when you are in it you are on top of this world and when it is gone...

just a false believe can keep you high..

what's this feeling?

Nobody knows its empty
this smile that i wear...
the real one is left in the past
because u have left me there..

Nobody knows i am crying
they wont see even my tears...
when they think that i m laughing
i still wishing you were here...

Nobody knows it's painful
they think that i am strong...
they say that this won't kill me
but i wonder if they were wrong...

Nobody knows i m praying
that you will change your mind...
they think that i let you go
when u left me behind...

Nobody knows i miss u
they think i feel set free...
but i feel like i am bound with chains
trapeed in the mystery...

Nobody knows i need u
they say that i can do it my own...
but" they don't know i am crying
"when i am aloneeeee....

i miss it all....

I miss it all I miss every single moment,

From moving around in the crowded streets to the lonely times we spent

I thought I was perfect but got to know the truth at last

I never imagined any such thing, it happened way to fast

I had always taken other person’s place in people’s life

But for the first time I was replaced, I almost died….

I could not help but cry with salty water flowing from my eyes,,

All I was left with a handful of thoughts and millions of lies

The lonely road that followed afterwards completely broke me to the core

I was left with the feeling of adversity; nothing seemed pretty about life anymore

No complaints no demands and nothing much left in my body & soul

I was barely able to walk, at such a slow pace my life began to crawl

With a heart that was empty and shattered badly,

I walk alone on this road that is dark and empty.

No sunshine I have in vision only hollowness surrounds

With bare feet I walk on these thorn covered grounds

Still with a smile on my face I keep on walking through these tough times

I can never figure out why all this had to happen, when everything was just fine 

ROCKSTAR.........

stars are millions in the sky, but i can not see even one ..

people surround me but i can relate to none..

this time of the day that time of the night,,,

with my thoughts all the time, i am in a constant fight,,

what was left undone why i was chosen as the one??

was it to show me the path or was it to make me run?/

to make me believe in a new beginning or did he want me to learn a lesson? 

i have not been able to understand it all,,,,everything happened in such strange fashion...

stranded along with my thoughts i am loosing my will,, i am loosing my control...

when the time will come will i be able to play my role? 

i know its a journey called life and we all have fit in...

but i always believed in giving smiles to others never sorrow nor grin,,,

then why this happened i question you oh almighty? 

why sorrow came at my door why was i punished, was i guilty? 

the answer is never gonna come,,,and i am not asking why...

all i am saying is why you made me laugh when you had to make me cry? 

can anyone soothe my soul, can anyone bring back the lost soul that i had? 

i am happy believe me its just that my words reflect that something inside me is a little sad...

that thing is not a part of me,, its something i got from you..

and through all these tough times, it was the only thing i held on to....

its called heart <3,, the one you gave me in the beginning. . . 

u forgot to take it back now its shedding tears as the sky is also raining... :(

you are you were and you ll always be my rock star,, 

everything is fair in it people say,, but i hope this is love and not war... ;)

bored

Monday’s I hate. Simply because of the fact that after two the weekend it is too tough to wake up and get ready to go to office. And even in the office everything goes so slow on Mondays L

I have been sitting at my workstation all day long, wrote just four articles today and a lot of stuff on the Internet. Thank God to the Internet or else I would go insane.

For most people it is a holiday today and for people like me, who have to sit in the office for 9 hours in front of the computer it is really boring, especially looking at the pleasant weather outside.

Was just going through a website on the Internet where I found a website 30 things to do top keep from getting bored, and one on the list was writing a blog, so here I am starting up the work.

Though there is really no meaning of this thing I am writing, but I really could not find anything better to do. ;)

Still have a couple of hours shift left, but eventually it will pass.